I Like My New Bunnysuit

2010-02-21T21:28:00.000-08:00

[#Now playing: Sea of Love - Cat Power]

I like to confuse people. Big time.

With just the power of words, sometimes.

That is pretty much contradicting because i hate confused people.

It's just confusingly irritating.

Make a choice and put your stand into it.

Not like a minute, a week later you try to pull yourself out of your own choice.

Can't you just make up your birdbrain mind?

The choice you make may affect so many people you might not realise around you.

And sometimes you make a decision because of the people around you.

Are you confused now after reading this?

Hahahaha

I know of a few people (oh why must they be girls)

they are so shallow and superficial.

They judge people with how people dressed and what kinda music they listen to.

If you don't dress the same or you don't listen to the same music,

you're not cool enough to be their friend.

How stupid is that?

They should curl up into a furball, be choked by a cat and die.

I haven't updated my blog for what it seems like forever.

And finally I am here today to go on ranting like a pussy.

Oh nooooo. This is nooo good.

It amuses me how media affects people.

If i leave some dark parts of my life that has been happening in the real nasty world,

out and don't mention it here

Do you think I've been enjoying myself?

Too busy to even update?

I am busy fighting to be strong,

hanging on to things to pull myself back up again.

Searching for that somewhere that shines in these darkest times.

PS, I'll update sooner than you know it. Promise!

2009-10-25T06:54:00.000-07:00

It's been almost a year.

Well, guess what. I'm here to ignite this lifeless thing back to life.

Let's kick some butt.

I am still crazy and hyper and still trying my best to try and keep my mouth shut.

Have a bunch of crazy classmates and football mates.

Yes, i still love running around for just one stupid ball.

Talking about it, it's been a while.

People come and go in life, it's something inevitable.

Even your old friends, there's so many of them.

But only the few remains while the rest don't know what happens to them.

Erwany, Laila and Andrea.

I miss you guys, truckloads.

24th October 2009 - yesterday;

Happy 3rd Death Anniversary, Danil Shagimardanov.

How time flies so fast. 3 years IS long.

People may think i overreact, but screw them.

I miss you too, i really do.

Hope you're still kickin' ass too, somewhere (:

And happy 19th, dude.

It's been a year since i met them who went over to your place yesterday,

i guess it's the only time we could meet up and try to catch up.

But i don't see the point for catching up. Don't ask me why.

And oh yeah, it's uncool to be cool.

Bye.

Taper Jeans Girl - Kings of Leon

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2009-01-10T14:18:00.000-08:00

[Listening to: Eyes Set To Kill - Pure White Lace]

o level results in less than 2 days.
it's definitely sucking all the nerves in me.
horrendously petrifying.

i have the list all ready,
lest if i do well or if i were to, ~~FAIL~~.
i can feel panic spiralling.

but whatever happens, happen.
i'm in for the worst.
so bring it on.

and oh yes,
two things i highly recommend.

firstly, go watch SEVEN POUNDS.
if you like the movie I Am Legend,
you'll love this.
i got all emotional and teary.
and also sadly, from this movie,
it clearly proves that age is really catching up on Will Smith.

IT'S WORTH EVERY SINGLE CENT AND TIME WATCHING IT.
(even tho it's free for me. hahaha. thanks again, Z.)

secondly, you just have to read THE TIME TRAVELLER'S WIFE.
i'm looking for the movie, anyone?
Love is always intensified by absence, or is it?
"If you feel like you lost a friend after reading the book, that proves how good it is."

now i'll go back to what i was doing,
HOPING THAT I'LL DO WELL.
my dad's anticipation for a good deal is just too tempting, damn it.

plus,

MY 18TH BIRTHDAY IS COMING.

I guess i screw things up again.
I'm sorry.
Or are you just the same?
Dazed and Confused

male chauvinists

2008-12-29T13:51:00.000-08:00

[Listening to: Pat Benatar - Hit Me With Your Bestshot]

This goes out to all the angsty ladies who's having a hard time dealing with those total idiots whom we refer to as, MEN.

Well, whether you like it or not, we all know that armageddon is coming after our bahookies(butts).

~~(Don't even get me started on 2012 cause personally, i think it's bullcrap.)~~

So anyways, the Holy Qur'an states that there'll be more women than men. I'm not saying that you should now turn your head to people from the same sex BUT, let me amplify what happens next.

Being the chauvinists bunch of creatures having a banana between two oranges, we'll only feed to their ego due to the fact that there'll be more competition in women getting men. Majority of women depends on men, since men make their world go round *like how my eyes rolling now when i typed that* On the contrary, men will feel vastly worshipped, leading to the severe inflatation of their heads.

From this, women will be looked as desperados and will always be at the loosing end.

Why is that so? It's because men tend to leave us, the women, when we screw the smallest things up. Or when they start to find things are getting mundane.

So you shitheads who's having a hard time with them,

you better be off going and NOT look back.

And for you who thinks that you're so lucky to have find the right one, start planning on how to keep your man right next to you. Remember, always be exciting.

The bottom line, men are superficial as they are made to be. Never be to vulnerable.

Now, let's all turn to a tough cookie :D

I'm definitely not interested with their silly games. Or am i? D: Haaahaa.

.................................................

And so here are some random pictures.

................................................................

Try fitting in Ahmad Adam, Seowling, Daming, Lihui and Jeff into the picture.

ANDREA EE ZIWEI's Sweet-16 surprise party!

I'm sure you had an awesome time, chica!
The few weeks of self-planning turned out great.

You totally didn't know what's happening.

Thank you

Hanisah, Joey, Jolyn, Erwany, Ayu, Ian, Benny, Kenneth, Daryl and Kenneth.

i miss you.

2008-12-20T02:45:00.000-08:00

I miss you;
I miss your hug.
I miss your smile.
I miss your smell.
I miss your love.

I miss you;
I miss you calling my name.
I miss you kissing my forehead randomly.
I miss you trying your best to tie my hair neatly.
I miss you looking at me in the eye and tell me that you're feeling happy.

I miss you;
I miss the times when we played stupid games and let me win.
I miss the times when you sent me noisy love songs.
I miss the times when we laughed over practically nothing.
I miss the times when you cycle all the way just to meet me.

I miss you;
I miss the cute name callings.
I miss the late night phone calls.
I miss the argument over who should end the call first.
I miss the way you try to annoy me cause you just can't.

I'd die a thousand deaths
for mastering enough guts to say this

But simply,
i miss having you in my life again.

where my party people at?

2008-11-18T13:18:00.000-08:00

listening to: Mudhoney - Touch Me I'm Sick

HELLO PEOPLE.
god, it's been so long since i last posted an entry.
I'll update more frequently, i promise :D

Too many things has happened, too many shocking news i've received.
Too many things I've realised about too many people.

I seriously don't know where to start. HAHA
but whatever it is, i just can't wait to say this,

'O' LEVELS ARE FINALLY OVER YO!

i can rock&roll all night, and party everyday!
busy having fun now :D
DISCO DISCO

okay till next time, suckas.
have fun in school/work ! HAHAHA.

bloody

2008-09-28T01:51:00.000-07:00

First ever batch to take a class photo together!

Awesome batch, awesome people.

Listening to; The Who - Baba O'riley

The clock was ticking, my heart was racing.

My facial muscles strained, should i be smilling or frowning?

After all those days I've been through without you,

leaping forward at every hurdles that comes in the way.

Fighting and shrugging off the thought of you

Why now, Sexy? Why now?

Hold it against me, still don't bother.

Satisfaction grew deeper, faith grew stronger

Now that you're here, everything's so numb.

I'm sorry but I'm so much better off without you

Curled up in bed, questions still running around in my head

Why is it impossible for me to be happy, all smiles

Running around instead of those questions that's running in my head?

No doubt, you turned me into what I am now

Well, not that chesty but I'm still a woman

That's not skinny, but still curvy ;)

It's been years now,

you running in and out of my life

I'm sick of this silly game.

Looking for the day you'll finally go away

BLOODY MENSTRUATION!!!

Bottom line,

i am finally not able to fast.

So much for thinking I thought i could fast the whole month.

Not until 15 minutes before break fast today,

i just had to go to the toilet.

Yes, it's definitely the reason why I screamed.

Just a few more days to go! To be specific, 4 more days!

Ah, only if it came 15 minutes after.

So depressing.

And Zw was overjoyed,

Me: GUESS WHAT! I'M BLEEDING.

Zw: Woooohooooo! So let's have ice cream with Jeff on Monday instead of Thursday!

We've already made a list on what to eat and where, for after Ramadhan.

Guess we shouldn't wait any longer, should we?

loooooooooooooooooooooooooool.

*Lo'loo came to my house to "break fast". I HAD FUN WITH YOU, BABE! "

[insert smiley]

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Self-reflect;

22 MORE DAYS TILL O LEVELS

:SSSSS

Good luck for O levels everyone,

we're gonna get through this together!

We can do it, i know we can.

Cheers :D

Dazed and Confused

2008-09-19T03:36:00.000-07:00

*sings* I got alot to say to you, i got alot to say.

looooool. finally i'm through with prelims.

i can say that i'm not expecting good grades cause i didn't study that hard for it,

even if i did well. why should i even bother bragging about it?

IT'S JUST PRELIMS.

so for those who feel busted after receiving marks you don't wanna see,

or those who brags a whole shit about it,

IT'S JUST PRELIMS.

on the contrary, everyone's getting so competitive now,

coiling around your heart making it so harder to breathe.

SO, SO WHAT? I'M STILL A ROCKSTAR! I GOT MY ROCK MOVES! :D

loooool.

oh boy, i really have so many things to rant.

but for the fact that I've to be in school by 7 tmrw,

yes, ~~SATURDAY MORNING.~~

it's ripping all the happiness in me like one hell of a scavenger.

ugh. i can't wait after tmrw, no more art please.

so imma say things randomly.

and yes, WITH ALOT OF PHOTOS AGAIN. ((:

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I just have to upload this photo.

Take a look at afah, so cuteeeeeeeeee right! Verrrrry spontaneous, i likee. *winks

Sidetrack; the 7-sexxx meet up session was really really reaaaaaaaally fun.

i'm definitely looking forward for more outings.

I really am thankful to God for granting me the opportunity

to meet this 6 gorgeously beautiful looking women,

they definitely have left their footsteps in my life.

Dear All;

My our friendship keep on rockin'! :D

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Now, there's another group of chicas whom i love alot alot too.

Who else if not the Liliput-ians :D

Here are the photos that speaks a thousand words,

it tells you about our daily-happenings during tuition ;)

Sensual Seduction ;)

And this last photo is simply the best,

Lo'loo and one of the goofy relief teacher.

LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL

So basically, i'm lucky to have this kinda muggin group,

not only i have fun. but at the same time, i absorb things in better ways :D

Love em.

Oh, one last thing.

Lo'loo and I created something. Sing this in-tune with Pussycat Dolls'

When i Grow Up.

WHEN I GROW OLD

I WANNA BE YOUNG,

I WANNA GO CLUBS,

STILL FEELIN SEXXX-XY!

And girls, take precaution. I strike without warning.

LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOl.

OK BYE.

Are we forever to be apart?

2008-09-12T03:24:00.000-07:00

Sorry for not updating. Been really really busy.
I seriously can't wait to get over and done with with O's.
It's driving me insane, balls. Especially, ART.

You see that hair on my head?
Yea, by the end of all the stupid examinations,

it'll be....

G O N E.

hahaha. okay whateva.

anyway, time check : 0347hr
hell yea.

I have art preliminary exam in about 4 hours time.
actually i seriously thought of not going,
yes i mean not going as in the not going. you know the skip/ponteng?
hahahaaaaa.

but people just have to make me promise that i'll be going.

why is PROMISE such a strong word? ugh.

okay moving on, I'm not gonna rant so much.
However, I'd still like to introduce
the not-so-new, but still new, beautiful people in my life.
I spent almost everyday with them, studying and having fun.

WE ARE THE LILIPUT-IANS.
no, you're not stupid as to not know what is that.
We go to Liliput Tuition Centre.
So that makes us the

*DRUMROLL PLEASE*

LILIPUT-IANS!

*sings* We are the Martians.

hahahaha. i think it's super cute, don't you?

I've been trying to upload these 2 crazy pics during tuition,
but since time is not my side,
I shall post the pics some other day okay.

Lo'loo, Nelly, Sofia, Priscilla.

(L)

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And I went to break fast with people I haven't met for so long.

I used to live in Bedok Reservoir,

and these 2 monkeys are like the bestest neighbours anyone is cursed to have.

HAHAHA.

Him: Tell him this is Arab.
He replied : Arab? So many arabs la, please. Which Arab?
Him: Arab Saudi.

looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooool.

yes, that's Taufiq Arab Saudi. LMAO

and this is, BOB!

And this is his lil cute gf, Sharifah.

It was funnnnnnnnnnnn.
Got home at 2plus in the morning.
Sim card got confiscated for 2days.

HAHAHAHAHAH.

Dear Bestfriend,

I'm worrying so much for you lately.

I hope you'll get over the matter soon.

Yes, i said

Please get over it ASAP.

Ily.

Oh take a look at that Cookie Monster,

it's definitely bigger than my head. HAHA ((:

Alright ya'll, imma stop here.

Gonna wake Mama up to prepare sahur.

Oh, I've been fasting since day one,

what about you?

I'm so depressed with the fact that,

There's so little faith in Muslims.

You guys ought to perish in hell.

HAHAHAHAHA.

SHAKUNTALA////// HAHAHAHA.
Have you ever loved somebody so much, it makes you cry?

WEBCAM SESSION LOVE.

2008-08-29T15:14:00.000-07:00

Webcam session with MONA the other day, was insane!

We had soooo much fun for hours!

There was this point of time when i was listening to

DANGEROUS by Akon,

I told her to listen to its as well, and asked her to stand up.

&& well of course,

the two of us ended up dancing at about 2plus in the morning!

Yes, while looking at each other in the webcam.

Had sucha hella good time.

I missssssss her so much, please!

Meet-up session with her never seem to take place,

Due to our bad timings that enjoy clashing with each other. Grrrrrrr

~~*sobsob*~~

And looooove,

i hope you'll get over the sucky experience during the check-up yea?

but i still couldn't get over the fact that i was not THERE.

you know i know *winks.

IMYSM!

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28th August 2008

HAPPY 17TH TO ADAM PETER FREDERICK REYNOLDS!

me: so how you gonna celebrate your birthday?

him: oh don't know actually. Well if I could get anything for my bday,

it would be to stop studying and just live the rest of my life

in the most fun way possible. Haga

You know I already put an alarm at 12midnight as expected of me.

Unfortunately, i fell asleep before that cause I was totally drained out of energy.

I fell asleep at about 1030pm,

while I was typing the sms to send him right at the dot of midnight.

And what could get even worse,

my phone is 7mins faster than the normal time.

So when it rang at 1200 (1153pm the real time)

i thought to myself that i didn't wanna be known as to kiasu to send him at that time,

so i took my time typing.

Miserably, i feel asleep again.

And only sent him the msg at 1213am.

Yes, 1205am the exact time

"Thanks, haga. This is like the fifth
message i
got. But can't feeling abit sad
some people can't be
here to celebrate.
Haga :):)"

Gibberish? I KNOW.

So i only got the msg the next morning.

Me: Oh man, i wanted to be the first!

Him: Nah, it's okay. I think i was bornfew minutes past midnight

so you probably wished me the most accurate.

AWWWWWWWWWWWWW,

sweet talking at its best! ;)

HAHAHA.

ps; if only you had known...

REDANG BEACH RESORT

2008-08-28T01:22:00.000-07:00

How many of you are standing on the same ground as me?
Preliminary exam's being such a bummer, lacking the space to breathe.
About to loose your sanity?

And how many of you just like me, hoping for some brilliant getaway
you could elope to with your loved ones. Someone from the opposite sex preferably?

(Ewww, that's too cheesy please.)

I bet you, hot babes

will loooooooooove this place as much as I do!

Redang Island, Malaysia!

It's the purrrrrrfect place for you to 'de-stress'.
&& Also the perfect time for you babes to have a sun-kissed skin!

The 4 days I went there were simply magnificent!

Even now when I'm typing this post,

there's this sedate excitement of an indescribable feeling overcoming me.

Blowing me slowly with I'm left with what's left Redang Islang -

THE SWEET MEMORIES.

The serene beauty of the beach will simply take your smelly breath away.

Just imagine,

your feet being embedded in the white sands of the purest kind,
the sound of the waves soothing the savage box in your worried mind.

Never did I regret a single bit going with those 5 coolest people,

They are...

Kak Shidah(cousin),

The torn among the roses -

Abang Shareen(cousin's husband),

i was busy having fun as soon as i set my foot there.

but not for him

cause sadly, he had to deal with the Curse of Redang.

HAHAHAHA.

ok moving on.

Kak Yana(cousin's husband's sister. LOOOL),

Hamid (Mariana's bf)

&& Mariana (Hamid's gf).

The BABES. (loooooooooooool)

Seriously, it was a tremendous experience!
Oh, did i mention? The 5 of them are certified divers.

SOOOOOOOOO imagine how jealous i got when they went for diving!

But nonetheless, I had a good time too.

Guess what I got for being jealoused?

I WENT FOR SNORKELING!

Not only that, I was being treated like a princess.

I had like a bunch of guys taking care of me,

as directed by Kak Shidah.

They were amazingly friendly and so fun to hang out with.

But i must add,

there were times when i feel like a complete idiot

when they started conversing in their language,

forgetting the fact that I'm a Singaporean. HAHA.

So here they are,

Oh and the best part,

you know we went to a spot to snorkel,

there were like 2 boats filled with snorkelers (families),

And like 5 families assigned to one of them from above,

anddddddddddd I, on the other hand,

had a 1-on-1 snorkeling session with Abang Mat!

*jumping eyebrows*

This friendly giant, above, became my father for 3 days!

After getting tired of swimming, all i had to do was to hold his hand.

He is an aaaaamazing swimmer.

Abang Mat brought me to see a shipwreck,

which was located at a point where all the other snorkellers were prohibited to go to.

The corals there were exceptionally beautiful, please!

And you know,
we were given one loaf of bread.

No, not for us, but for the fishes

You just imagine (yes, imagine again!),

about a hundred count of fishes swimming underneath you

for the bread in your hands!

I remembered the during the first time,

i got a few bites (which doesn't hurt at all, but was very shocking. *SNAPSNAP*)

on my fingers, holding the bread.

With the breathing tube in my mouth,

i shrieked, allowing myself to enjoy the few gulps of seawater -___-"

But seriously, the scenery underwater was simply randishing!

Another reason why I wanna go deeper into the depth of the sea,

is to be an OPEN WATER SCUBA DIVER!

Hahahaha. Soon soon, after O levels! Inshallah.

Who's with me?

Okay, i just realised that the post is like never ending.

Haha. Sorry! =X

So imma just let the pictures do the talking aight? ((:

Courtesy of Shamsidah (:

This was after snorkeling, and i was walking till i decided to SNAP.

On the back to ~~boring~~ Singapore.

I somehow miss my piercings now! Smiley.

And the group photo taking session before we left,

Oh and this guy over here is the funniest guy there, i swear!

Abang Zuki

I loooooooove his sense of humour.

Dated 14 March 2008

Till next time,

i miss each and everyone of them so badly!

I am searching for the words to say,

but i just dont't know where to start.

Engagement

2008-08-16T21:08:00.000-07:00

listening to Closer by Ne-yo, that uglay monster. HAHA

Engagement.

Girls, tell me. Be engaged or get married straight?
Hmmmmmmm.

What's the difference anyway?
I can never get it.

From MY point of view,
i think engagement is a waste of money.
Why splurge so much on a day, that MIGHT not work out in the end?

(Let me repeat, MY POINT OF VIEW. no offense.)

But of course,

it'll be so cool if things work out really well,

and and the big day comes

and and you get to put on a lot of make up

and and you get to wear nice pretty dresses

and and you can't breathe half of the time because the dress might be too tight

and and you get to put on henna

and and you get someone to set up your hair

and and you get all eyes watching you with envy

and and you get to see the way people gobble up good Nasi Bryani from where you're sittin

and and you get to camwhore with aunts and uncles you never thought you'd camwhore with

and and you get to feel your cheeks get all so tight from smiling too much

and and you see your life companion sitting next to you

and and you feel all excited thinking that you guys are now husband and wife

and and you start thinking about the bed you guys gonna share

and and you start thinking about what happens next...

and okay, shut up.

But honestly speaking,
I think I wannaaaaaaaaaa get engaged!

No fancy reason,
only for the fact that I like the address, 'FIANCE'.

Stranger: Are you his girlfriend?
ME: Hell no, I'm not! I'm his FIANCE! *rolls eye and walks away*

HAHAHAHAHAHAH.

Nevertheless,

I would like to congratulate Kakak Rosnah and FIANCE *winks*,
for their engagement. May you guys last till the big day,
okay that sounded rudely wrong, i'm sorry.

correction; MAY YOU GUYS BE HAPPY TOGETHER FOREVER. Amin

Kakak if you're reading this,
you looked sooooooo prettaye on your engagement day!
And I'm so happy for you ((:
Best wishes.

Ash neneh pok,
so when is your turn to get engaged? or or marrrrried?
HAHAHA.

no, you don't hafta answer that.
answer this first.

WHEN ARE YOU EVERRRRR GONNA ACCESS ME TO YOUR BLOG?
@&^^%^$&^(&%^ !!

And, I soooo want the photos please.

Oh, this yellow banana here is my a n n o y i n g sister.
And you should be the one for me to ask,

when are YOU settling down?
I need to be good wallflower and play pretty.
HAHAHAHA.

Oh should i stress that,
you have my 100% approval ONLY with that hot lad sittin' next to you.
*whispers* Kak Op, he looks exactly like Abg A...
another hotstuff. hehe

Elly and Farah
Do they look alike?
But they ARE alike in the irritating way.
HAHA.

Have a good day, suckers.

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to you,
i've had had enough, Bby.
You annoying prick.

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Tags reply;

waneh neh: ramz ramz

SHAKZ; EUNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNS.

vanoraa: hahs. i thought i already sent them to your hp! tsk. and wheres the pics youre supposed to send to my email. ill mail them pictures to you pretty soon. loves you darling!
SHAKZ: yes, you did but only the pics of me and him. I WANT THE REST. hahaha. oh yes, thanks for reminding, i keep forgetting. teehee. MWA!

seri: babe! i already link you lah!haha.meet up soon!=)

SHAKZ: linked you up too, love. YES MEET UP SOON! with affahbby.

Sophisticated: eh not forgetting, imy, imy2, ily, ily2,irmy or WTF...hahahahahahaha. Have a great day!

Sophisticated: Heh! Finally, updated blog. Btw, its pilgrimage not pilmi..wadeva u spell it. Update more often yah~ and also, for the monroe, its $15? Soo cheap? Is it painful?
SHAKZ: Firstly, the piercing is no pain at all. Why interested? HAAHAHAHHA.
Secondly, eh why you seboksebok. imy ke ily ke iwfy ke. you jealous right no one says that to you. hahahah. JOKES BABE JOKES.

Give me sexx-xy

2008-08-15T23:46:00.000-07:00

We'll find a place where the sun still shines;

I am so sorry,

i just realised that i should upload my blog.
Been extremely busy, explicit schedule!

KAK OP : you go delete suda your blog. never update at all!

ME : I'm busyyyyyyyyy la.
KAK OP : then atleast tell us you're busy!

Just sooo many things happened, but i've too lil' time to go ranting about it.

Thus, imma round it allll up in point forms. Short & brief (:

But do take note that this post will definitely be pictures heavy,

and another very longgggggg one, yet again.

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8th August 2008

HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN

To My Good-Looking Cousin!

Damn, time flies so fast. You're a big boy now, aren't you?

The days when we were still in primary school,

you sleeping over my house and the times

when we used to play wrestling seems like it was yesterday.

*WHY AM I SOUND ING SO SAD?*

oh well, happy birthday!

GOOD LUCK FOR YOUR N LEVEL.

stay good-looking and remain as hotstuff forever okay?

HAHAHAH.

9th August 2008

First, and foremost.

HAPPY 43rd Birthday To You Lil Dot Of Crap! :)

Ok done, moving on.

Since majority were being so typical,

going to Marina or Esplanade etc to catch the fireworks.

It's becoming everyone's primilage;

every god damn year, going to the same spot, doing the same stuff

Oh oh, and should i mention that the place will d efinitely be infested?

With what else if not ~~Mats&Minahs~~ (EWWW!!),

or or people with gladiators or with the eyebrow piercing?

HAAAH! This bitchy feeling is over-whelming. *giggles*

So back to what i was saying, besides doing the 'pilmirage'

I did something else instead,

WHICH WAS TAD MORE SUPERB!

I went to the beach with my family, aunts & uncles, cousins.

No, that's not just ittt.

THE FUN CAME BLASTING with every drop of the RAIN.

it was damn shioooooooook, i tell you.

Ash, Vanoraa & I played in the rain,

while our parents and cousins went inside the beach when it was raining

so heavily.

Oh I must share this one, Do you know that?

Playing in the rain actually acts as a therapy for your mind & soul.

It reduces stress, and eases your worried mind.

I've tried several times & It's tested and proven!

YOU'LL HAVE TO TRY IT TO BELIEVE IT OKAY.

Just look how fun it is too all wet, it definitely makes you feel sexier ! ^-^

And i met/saw these people too,

Simone! My ex-primary schoolmate.

Just a bit more photos taken (:

I would looooove to show you guys more photos of us having fun in the rain,

but its with dear Vanoraa, who's currently busy having fun at Clementi (:

Oh oh, and you see that shades?

Danggggggggg. It was my first time using it, and guess what?

My cousin returned it back to me, and it was BROKEN (!!!!!!!!!!!!).

Ouch, i can feel the heartache )):

On the whole,

my national day "celebration" was awesomely ass-kickin'!Too bad for you, who were stucked at already so packed MARINA!

HAAAAAAAAAAAAH! :D

12th August 2008

I got my 3rd monroe, this time i went to the shop at Pasir Ris.

For 15 bloody bucks! (:

Dear Lovebirds,

Now that you guys have gotten back together,

PLEASE STOP FIGHTING.

I'm tired of callin' someone a CCB after each break up ok.

HAAAAH!

"Sha, you rase F ngah pikir psl i tk?" LOOOOOOOL.

13th August 2008

HAPPY 49TH BIRTHDAY PAPA! :D

May you continue being the strong person I knew right from the time I called you, Papa.
Please take care of your health.

&& You know i love you.

Me : Papa 5 bucks?
Papa : Tak habeshabes menghabiskan harta.

HAHAHAHAHA :))

Ok imma end it here.
Its too long already, i bet none of you actually read till here.
HAHAHHAHA.

See ya'll around, shenanigans!

Danil Shagimardanov

2008-07-30T22:52:00.000-07:00

Dear Danil,

I hope you're at peace where ever you may be.

Gosh, all the times we spent seem like yesterday.

So here it goes;

Two years ago, on 24th October 2006, was Danil's 17th birthday.

It went on conjuction with Hari Raya Puasa. On Tuesday.

I already bought him his birthday gift.

Eeyore marshmallow pillow,
since he wanted the same birthday gift i got for Adam,
my bf then.

I can still remember that particular Monday.

Danil, being the jackass,
came to school feeling so high cause he went clubbing the previous day.

He showed me how he danced, and gave me quite a number of lapdances.

We also managed to plan some exciting events as we were gonna have our December holiday.

Trips to escape themepark, movies and clubs, did not come as planned.

(I'm tearing up, yet again.)

Okay i've repeated this whole story for idk how many times!

So let me just cut it short,

Danil Shagimardanov left us on his 16th Birthday.
He didn't wake up from his sleep in the morning

when his family went into his room to wake him up

with a birthday song! (Just so you know, his parents are musicians. Like him.)

He was facing the other side when his family came in.

They sang it once, no response.
They thought he'd wake up if they'd sing it louder for the second time.
And there goes the second time, much much louder.

But to no avail.

They turned him around.

Sadly, he was already blue. (fuck, this tears wont stop falling)

Despite the fact that he was already gone,

his dad still tried to ignite him back to life.

CPR, shook him, whatever, you name it.

and his mom won't stop screaming.

Skip

On Wednesday, i came to school late.

And yes, we were all still oblivious to his death.

Excited as any other day to see the two jackasses- Adam&Danil.

And I was excited too cause we already planned to go out after school.

(Danil wanted to get me JollyShandy as his treat. HAHAHA. Shut up)

Then it was weird, I saw Adam walking around in school
without Danil.

I could already sense something was amissed,

Danil not in school the day after his birthday? Impossible.

Skip

I was about to put on my make-up cause the concert was about to start,
and i was the MC.

Adam came to me with Mona, I could somehow smell the stinking truth

from the look on their faces, Mona's tearing eyes.

"Babe, Danil died yesterday morning. Mdm L just called his house to confirm

if the rumour was true."

"You kidding right? You..."

My limbs felt weak, my whole weight came crashing down to the floor.

It started with a nugget ball of pain, then i realised i was choking on the ball of agony.

Most of the teachers came to look for me as soon as they received the news.

Like my chemistry teacher then, Mrs Lim. ( IMISSYOUSOMUCH!)

They thought i was with Danil, as in, his girlfriend, girlfriend. Yes that girlfriend.

I can never forget the day, deeply etched inside me.

The chair, pulled next to my table was still there.

His 7-up bottles under his table.

The unfinished fish/chicken burgers under his table.

Skip

Went to chua chu kang crematorium for the last service.
I couldn't help but to hear myself screaming for him to wake up to tell me

that all it was was a big fat ugly prank he had on me.

Skip

Till today, i know these people have yet to get over the whole death issue.

Adam

Creedence

Hassan

Liza

and myself.

Dramatic?

After a year, going to 2 years now, I've not dealt fully with his death.

The whole impact was grotesque.

I'm missing you till bits, crazy.

We'll always be missing you;

Erwani, Mona, Aidil and the rest i mentioned above and who genuinely treats you as a friend

right from the start and not since you've been gone.

Danil Shagimardanov

24th October 1990 - 24th October 2006

I'll keep you lock in my head, until we meet again.

loooooooooooong post

2008-07-24T15:40:00.000-07:00

I didn't go school again today.

Tsk, been sick for 2 days now.

It wasn't my fault for playing in the pouring rain.

I already tried my best to resist the temptation which is very much supreme.

Besides, there was no shelter from school to the bus stop.

So here am i updating my blog for you entertaintment, yes? HAHAHAH :D

Today, i kept reminiscing about my past.
The gooooooooood and care-free times.

I miss my past, i swear. I miss my old self - physically and mentally
I miss soccer,
I miss being so tanned,
I miss laughing out loud,
I miss the fun Nur Erwani, Laila Shakban & Shakyna Ramlee used to have la!

Ultimately, I miss Danil Shagimardanov Zulfarovich.

My late best friend, my other "BOYFRIEND".

The memories can't be replaced; the best times.

I can still remember our Getting Smart method,
slamming textbooks hard onto our heads
hoping that our heads will absorbed whatever shenanigan(shit) inside it.

The day You, Creedence, Adam & I
climbed the crazy flock of staircases till the roof top
at The Rumps condominium opposite Kembangan MRT.
The same day you rejected the dare when Adam & I dared the two of you to be lip-locked.

HAHAHAHA.

The awesome times i had, had with the two of you.

Adam & Danil; My Two Superheroes

Oh this is the day when Adam wore my half-jacket in TOWN. hahaha

Dude, you have no idea how much i missed you!

I miss you calling my name,
I miss your vulgarities song,
I miss listening to you singing songs from The System Of A Down,
I miss you watching you disturbing Munisha,
I miss those piggy-back rides.

Gosh, i miss you terribly.

Sometimes, Adam & I ponder on what you would be doing now.

The impact of you leaving us was grotesque.

School became morbid as ever when you left,
no one running around doing crazy stuff like -
dressing up as a Dracula using the piano cover as a cloak.

No one to head-butt me,
No one to give me a lapdance.
No one to dance with me in class.

Now, I have to face the teachers alone for not handing up work.
Sigh.

May peace be with you where ever you may be.

I miss you, jackass!

Ps; I'M BRINGING SEXYBACK! YEAH!

(I'll tell you guys further details on the day he died, in my next entry.)

Saturday, 20th July 2008 - The Mighty 6 Meet Up Session

Finally i get to meet this bacin here!

Now that she has started working, i know i won't get to meet her often.

Moving on...

Lynn & I met up first at Hougang,

then we went to meet BABYGIRLS at Cityhall around 1900hr.

initially, we were all supposed to meet up at 1730hr! :S

Affah, Farrah & Munnie came first, at 1800hr.

okay diam, i know how long me and lynn made them wait.

Munnie called this JANJI MELAYU kan kan kan?

hahahaha. soooooooooorry babygirls! :(

By the time we came, Affah and Munnie walking around,

Farrah went to meet her bf first.

.......................

Despite the fact that they waited for us about an hour and a half,

we had a hellllllll of a good time after that, i swear!

FarrahRocher&Isha, you two should've been with us.

I laughed till my face became like TOMATO.

especially with Affah la, her melatah, damn funny!

POTATO-TOT-TOT.

haha. ily, Affahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! *giggles

After the great dinner we had at LJS(not the food, but the time spent laughing)

Isha came at about 8plus, she was from school.

She had a camp before that. So imagine eh,

my darling came all the from Temasek Poly,

to Marina to meet us. Oh oh, with her CAMP BAG as well.

Sweet right right right? I know!

ily, Isha!

Apis Farrel came to join us as well after work,
hope you're feeling better now eh!
If not, get well soon! :D

So then we headed to marina steps to slack.
Another helllllllllll of a good time, yo!

This time, The Mighty 6 were all present.
Farrah came to join us!

Of course, what else can we do besides camwhoring eh?
Here are some of the 70pics.

Oooooooooh, and guess who i saw?

GUESS! GUESS! GUESS!

After such a looooooooooooooooong time,
i finally get to see this Apek here.

Azlan.

I was shocked to see him,
he was shocked to see me.

I'm bigger now, i know. HAHAHA

"Last time, you.... Skrg what happened?"

FUCK! Gym session anyone! _!_

HAHAHAHAHA.

On the whole, i had a blast!

The fun was DYNAMIC!

Girls, let's make this meet up session on a regular basis please?
Farrah, Munnie & Isha, study session soon?

Now, i'm gonna seize this opportunity to show you guys some pics.

Here you go.

The Mighty 6;

Affah

Lynn

Munnie

Isha

Farrah

Shakz

Sunday, 24th July 2008

Okay this is rather random,
but guess who texted me?

AZLAN.

*winks to Munnie :D

Hahahaha. Thanks eh azmi (:
Okay you know why this is rather weird?

Last time,
Azlan & I had this weird thing going on.

Not for a few months, but pretty long aye?
About 1 year plus.

The countless messages and long conversations.

HAHAHAH.

Monday, 22nd July 2008

Rather gloomy and wet day.
The rain seemed like it wouldn't stop pouring.
Reminds me of Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire somehow;
when the next day when Cedric died.

The whole world seemed gloomy.

Okay, doesn't make sense i know.

HAHAHAH.

Oh Adam,
hope your ear infection get well soon aye
seriously,

GO AND SEE THE DOC!

okay, i don't see this post going anywhere.
till next time
; I can hear your breath bragging still.

Goodbye.

2008-07-19T13:25:00.000-07:00

Hey You.

I think you ought to know why i'm no longer talking to You.

(It's a girl, so much for calling her a BEST friend.)

First of all,

you need to understand and realise that, you.like.to.brag. ALOT!

How often and what do you brag about?

EVERYTIME, EVERYDAY & about EVERYTHING.

Do you have any clue how irrating it is?

It's VERY SUPERRRR MASSIVE ABSO-BLOODY-LUTELY, urghhhhhhh!

Just like the dopey pimple i had on my eyelid.

Ghastly annoying -.-"

"You know i got alot of friends. I know him, i know her...." Really?

"Oh, my mom had this $300 Chanel sunglasses." So what?

"I used to get first for English in Sec 1 & 2." Then what happened now?

"Yeah, i know that song since I was in blahblahblah." Wow..........

"No, i know. The owner of the pool place is my friend." Shut the ~~fuck~~ up.

At times, i feel like shoving a smelly wet sock up that cakehole(mouth) of yours.

Or just hurl up and die,

than to hear you brag, especially about him, for every god damn day.

Secondly,

You definitely talked about me behind my back,

and act that oh-so-good "best friend" in front of me.

WTF, you know i don't buy all this shit.

I should have realise this from the start when you started bitchin' about

your BEST FRIEND(s) to me.

You're capable of doing it to them, you're capable of doing that to me.

Third and finally,

that bloody mouth of yours just couldn't keep shut, huh?

You had to tell someone about my one-of-the-most-craziest secret.

Remember the one i told you about at your house?

The secret that you swore you won't tell anybody?

Some kind of a best friend you are.

I definitely don't need you no more,

i know better now who to call a BEST FRIEND.

This superficial skinny idiot whom i usually refer to Dumb Dumb,

My Bestfriend, My Love, My Drama Queen.

Andrea EEEEEEEEEE Ziwei

I won't forget the days we had FLUFFY& get all messy!

When I still had that streak of blonde on the first day of this term.

"Do you know that I can touch my chin with my tongue?" HAHA

My 17th birthday kiss at Sakae. HAGA *winks. i know you know

Bitches with CLASS, mind you.

The day when it all started. She got angry and ignored me.

She was reading her book, and i was happily camwhoring.

Ignorance is bliss, aye? HAHAHAHA

But we're good now, or even better. We hafta thank YOU!

My Recess Laughing Partner

We're having more fun without you

Of course, we know you're having a real good time too.

You're back with your old best friend

whom you used to call her a, Flirt.

She is still now, isn't she? So are you gonna be one too?

HAHAHA.

Whatever, here's just three words for You;

Fcuk Off, Bitch.

You can mess with her,

but definitely not with me.

Can you see the line? Yeah, you're on the other side.

Obliterated

2008-07-14T15:21:00.000-07:00

HELLO, HELLO!

I did not go to school today. I know I already vowed not to skip school again. But blame it on my fever and my burned back okay! I went sentosa yesterday with irwanshah and family. It was damn tiring ah. Imagine how long we walked till I could't feel my toes!

Despite the tightness of my leg muscles from yesterday till today, my fever and my back that is burned but not severely, i still had fun yesterday! I'm sorry i can't show you the photos yet cause irwanshah still haven't send me yet. I could of show you guys the mermaid i made out of sand. It really looks like real la, my god! Not bragging eh, not bragging!

After which, i wanted to go home straight - I REALLY NEEDED TO TAKE A SHIT.

however, no one was home and i forgot to bring my keys. my family went out to watch

Kuda Kepang, thank god it was only at the blocks opposite my block, across the road.

I went to meet them, with the shit still fighting to come out. Wanted to grab the keys and go head home, but my best friend since i was the age of 8, was there. I mean, he was performing, so i decided to stay since the plans we had to meet up was never successful. This is the second time i see him in trance since he somehow joined this quite recently. Again, i took a video. Yes, still with the shit inside my ass. The pain was killer, no joke.

Me : Adid, shasha da tak tahan sia nak terberry.

Him: Berak aje ah.

Me : Kat mane seh?

Him: Just do it ah, byk bushes kat sini.

Me : Thanks eh!

I got a video of him in trance, but i like lazy to upload. So here are some of the photos i took with him yesterday and him in trance.

My dad was feeding him the glass.

Oh, Ziwei didn't go to school today too! High 5! HAHAHAH.
And yes, if you do anything stupid anymore,
Imma have to slap ya, PA! PA!, like your mother. ((:

12th July 2008

LYLE PIKU POT POT is back yo!

I reached the airport around 2100hr. I was about half an hour late because i told Kak Ada,

her sister, that i was gonna be there by 2030hr. Luckily, we were smsing along the way, i somehow accompanied her, that's the only thing i could do no?

So yeah, it was good to see her again! And yes, that ass didn't get me what I asked for -

a kangaroo with the baby in its pouch! :/

But she got me something else which she didn't wanna tell. I'm meeting her on the 15th, Tuesday, in school because i end school at 1710 (I'm a loser, i know), and she's coming to collect her testimonials too. Yay! I can't wait to see what i got! And here are the retarded photos.

She got her cap with the fan on top luh. Reminds me of Doraemon, idkwhy.

&& LOOK AT HER CHEEKS. OMG!

I went to irwanshah's house after that, I reached there about 2330hr.

Following them to Sentosa the next day.

11th July 2008

I guess this'll be the last entry about the so-called "love" story?

Honestly, readers - and spare me your rosy tint - do you think there's a chance for us to get back together? Personally, there's a huge possibility that the answer is, no. Therefore, i am proud of my decision, and that is no not to wait for him till idk how long more but to move on since i really can't find the reason to keep holding on.

I already did what i could. And all the hopes that had kept me dangling before could no longer ignite the fire of love between us no more.

So that explains the reason why I'm no longer looking forward, and i like it like that! (:

And i'm no longer surrending myself to fate, i'm just being pragmatic from now onwards.

Applaud me demurely for my altruistic gesture please! (: HAHA.

kudos shakz!

Besides, I'm turning 18 in a matter of 7 friggin more month; allowed to finally enjoy things like nightlife, of course - LEGALLY. *i'm so sad for you ziwei, for taking such a long time. lmao*

My point of saying that is, I'm sure you guys understand how irritating sometimes to have a BOYFRIEND, yes? I shall say, majority of them, steals your life away from you. Plus, the fun you are supposed to have, AT THIS AGE. I'm sorry, i might not share the same view as you, but i'm thinking the rational way. So that explains (:

Unless, the kinda boyfriend who's willing to go clubbing with me,

or trust me to let go with my own friends, I don't mind.

HAHAHA :p

Nonetheless, my heart is doing pirouttes in my chest for saying this -

but I'm still gonna be there for him.

(Contradicting but there's a reason to it which I shall tell ya'll later.)

Thus, i still believe that the sun still shines bright on his ass, literally.

*winks to ziwei*

On the contrary, i somehow somewhat still have him in someway.

HAHAHA

So now babes,

explain to me why do i ever need a boyfriend?

HAHAHAHA

Boys are like puppies, cute and adorable....

Until they became DOGS!

Baby, Come Back

2008-07-12T02:47:00.000-07:00

How would you feel if your ex-bf (need not to be

the last but preferrably your first and the best &

most outgoing, so that you could understand

what my point is), that took months for you to

get over with or still getting over with, looked

you up to talk about his problem? Not just any

problem, but his GF broke up with him.

After about a few months not talking to each other,

only some random time, he'd text you. How would you feel?

Well, he looked me up on the 10th of July on MSN, just after i posted the previous
entry below.

I was pretty shocked when he gave me a nudge and, "Hey, what's up?"

From the start, whenever i feel bumped out or pissed at something, he's the most comfortable

person i could confide in. So coincidentally, I couldn't need him more when he showed up.
So after i let every single fuckin thing out, and was feeling better. I asked him how he was

doing. And that's when it all started.
Just one line, that made me forget how to breathe for a minute.

"***** broke up with me."

I already could sense that his problem must be something about him and

*****. But i didn't expect to know that it was HER who broke up with him. I admit that I was feeling a lil bit estactic to learn that. However, I knew that its either he's upset and wanna talk it out, or he's moving on after the break up and decided to look for me.

The whole conversation was very much unpredictable. && i, on the other side,
WAS BEING TOO HONEST. Yes, TOO HONEST.
WHICH I HAVE NEVER BEEN THAT HONEST TO ANYONE BEFORE!

How i wish i could explain more, but i can't. Its's massively confusing.

Maybe just a snappy info - Yes, he was upset about her leaving him. But we were talking

about other things too which we both somewhat found out things that we ought to know

right from the beginning. It could've saved me from all the agony i went through.

(Oh just so you know, early this year, we were contacting and talking to each other quite often

after about a year since I broke up with him.)

Ah, and guess what?

here are some of the things we talked about

in MSN,

him: can i ask a weird question

me : ummmmmmmmm.. yes?
him: no its okay

me : ASK ME ASK ME ASK ME ASK ME ASK ME ASK ME ASK ME
him: haga ok were you seeing **** while seeing me? or was it just my paranoia?

and then i was like LMAO! when i actually told him the truth which is, I didn't and never

see other guys when i was still with him. And, surprisingly, he apologised.

him: sorry

me : why?
him: i accused you wrongly

wait, this is the part when it all links up together making us realised the BIG SMELLY

~~MISTAKE.~~

me : and then can i ask you something? do you remember at the beginning of this year, what

happened between us? you were already with ***** when we contacting each other, weren't

you?

him: nope well i was with her only on march 11. but you know that time i had my break, and i
was talking to you quite alot. i think you know where this is going
me : nope, seriously. carry on
him: okay i wanted to actually hook up again but you just saw me as a friend didn't you
me : you bloody idiot. you stupid asshole. you bloody cuckoo.
him: why?

me : I WAS WAITING.
him: oh shit. okay but then you don't want to know what made my decision to not get back

i said because i'm BLAH BLAH BLAH and BLAH BLAH BLAH?

him: no, hell no. well i thought you cheated on me with ******, that's why

i was scolding him for thinking like that. i was somehow agitated a bit to learn about it.

me: why didn't you ask?
him: i was scared.
me : you one egoistic asshole.

and BLAH BLAH BLAH again, and more BLAH BLAH BLAH. and i'll never forget this,

him: it would of been nice to have you back cause some of the best times i had, i had it with you.

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww! (:

&& one thing leads to another. When we were talking about our past, and this is the part when i was being too honest, that i myself couldn't belive it. OH ITS PROBABLY BECAUSE IT WAS ABOUT 1+ in the morning, deprived of sleep, drank coffee and so explains the sugar rush.

me : and as long as you dont deflower/mayflower whatever you call it to anyone, even the

girl you love most, i'll still hope you would be mine again.
him: that really means alot to me, you don't know how much.

THAT'S IT. (10th July 2008)

Time check: 0107hr

OMFCB. I just put down the phone with him. I'm pretty glad that he actually wanted to talk

to me about *********. and, there's seriously alot and major similarities between me

and her, i swear to the mother of a holy cow! Hearing the things she said from him was way

too weird.
Can you imagine?
She said the exact same lines like I did when i was with him,
at the same stage.

ok continue. And so he's comfortable with me (or maybe too comfortable) till he spoke
irrelevant stuff, like the times i had been comfortable talking to him when i was down with problems.

However, the conversation just now also came like a BIG SLAP to me.

Without he realising it, his words were like a venom, sticking on to me, into my skin,

breaking my bones, slowly feeding on my blood. Its eating me every piece of me, still eating.
I'm sorry but to ask, what do you think of this phrase,

"...i'm not so sure about my feelings to anyone right now..."

That phrase came like an atomic, blowing off the whole nation off in me literally, got very very
close to tears. Yes, it was when i was talking about me never been as honest as last night to anyone before. But what exactly lies between that lines? I'm still contemplating the meaning.

Ziwei, my bestfriend who never fails to cheer me up, was actually happy when i told her
about it.
"Isn't it good? Its is lah because it also means he is not sure about his feelings to
***** right now too! There's hope!"

What do YOU think about the phrase?

So now, i seriously have no idea on what to do.
I'm straddling the horns of dilemma.

Nonetheless, he thanked me again just now for becoming listening ear. And i replied him

the same thing as the other day,

"For you, a thousand times over."

This was in 2006.

And this was on my birthday- 2008

What are we suppose to do ? After all that we’ve been through

When everything that felt so right is wrong. Now that the love is gone

Till next time;
Can’t find the reason to keep holding on;

Adam Peter Frederick Reynolds

screweable inspiration

2008-07-09T21:49:00.000-07:00

On this very day, i SHAKZ KIMCHI, would like to make a vow.

I WILL GO TO SCHOOL EVERYDAY FROM NOW ON.

I WILL PUT A BIG FAT FULLSTOP TO THIS NASTY PROCRASTINATION DISEASE,

IGNORE CERTAIN PEOPLE FOR THE SAKE OF MY UPCOMING PRELIMS & SCARY 'O's.

NOT BE A MOFOING EMPTY VESSEL.

you readers shall be my witnesses.

thanks to what i learned, on this very day. i feel enlighted.

thanks to what i learned something from the inspiration talk in school just now. && believe it or not, i was inspired! like WOAHHHHHHHH! it came like a slap, Pa~!, across my face.

here it goes:

Start with a ripple.

And then it becomes a small wave which will have a momentum.

From which, it forms into a wave.

get it? oh for you stupid shitheads, it means that from a small change in your, it may turn into a big change in your life.

especially for those like me, sitting for major exams (Olevels, Alevels etc)

I COMPLETELY UNDERSTAND FOR THOSE WHO HAVE BEEN PROCRASTINATING, WHO IF SHOULD BE SHOT IN THE HEAD FOR NOT MUGGIN, like *looks down* ~~ME.~~

still think you're much worse than me, read this SMS which i just received about 2 mins ago;

"Hey. U knw what? Ur actions nw is EXACTLY like mine last year. Nt coming sch often, miss lessons. By the time u want to focus after prelim, it will be too late. I dnt want u to end up like me."

WOAH, AGAIN ITS LIKE MOVING MOUNTAINS. what should i be feeling right now?

tsk.

oh before i forget, thank you goodfriend for the meaningful sms. the more i need a wake up call, no? i admit, a bit the ouch. but tsk, i should just shuddup cause i may sound nothing more but just an empty vessel which gives you the hell of the stinkin' feelin.

so anybody, who's willing to make the first ripple, let's go for some serious muggin.

i have a handful, just a handful of people to POPPYCOCKIN' PROVE THE SHIT OF EM' WRONG.

and to you,

i dont see why i should explain to you why i didn't go kl,

or why i went offline the minute you came on.

you're still the same guy whos creepin' & holdin' onto my life.

like a motherfuckin creep.

two words;

~~FUCK OFF!~~

i'm missing this people you see here, and the pics might not be perfect.

these freaks here, they're born genius laaa ok.

COMMUNICATION AND MEDIA MANAGEMENT,

RESORT AND HOSPITALITY MANAGEMENT,

MASS COMMUNICATION IN SP.

my eversince primary school buddies,
SHARIFAH NADIYAH BTE SYED FUAD
AMIRAH BTE ABFUL RAHMAN
NUR JUHAIDAH BTE ISHAK
FATIN NABILA BTE SULAIMAN
MUHD SYAFIQ BIN ABDUL RAUF
SYED SHAZWIE BIN SYED OMAR
MUHD RIDAUDDIN BIN ASRI
TENGKU MUHD SHAH

all like ccb can? hahaha. ok. i'm pretty bumped out for now, with things/people.

till next time;

i hate how much i've missed you. screw yooooooooooooooooooou!

Its like Moooooving Mountains.

2008-07-04T13:20:00.000-07:00

HEY BABY, HEY BABY, HEY! hahaha

i just took my last warm gulp of instant-rich nescafe.

AND DANGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG, i-am-feelin-high!

its like mooooving mountains. HAHAH

(oh i woke up at 0640 this mornin, you're about to know why)

i cried this morning actually like a lil' puss.

BECAUSE I WAS SUPPOSED TO LEAVE FOR KL WITH MY PARENTS AND NURFHY NOT UNTIL WE ALL REALISED THAT MY PASSPORT IS MISSING.

yes, omfg i knowwwwwwwwwwwww!

but i aint trippin cause i was told at the last minute which is yesterday. luckily my mom asked to check when we were still at home.

*yeah i'm trying to make myself feel better, STFU*

but seriously, im going swimming l8r, tanning, and sauna with irwanshah.

*chuckles* my cousin.

moving on.

and i went shesha-ing again yesterday.

last week was fun. i end school about 4plus(yes, structured time-table where lessons being

stretched like cb till 4 or 5.15pm every single motherfuckin day). i reached home about 5 turning 6 and rushed, making everything snappy. SHOWERED&PULLED MY PANTS&SHIRT && KAPUT! i was already making my way there, meeting sheikhmdshahmi+chunny+JM at bugis mrt.

im sorrrrrrrry but as usual, he was waiting for me. this time, for only a short while, right right!

so yeah, met up with SAMdol at the place. && now, the pics.

SHEIKHMDSHAHMI, MrBestfriend.

yes, i didnt take many pics. unlike yesterday.

i took about 5654163pics. hahah! but that's not it, farah has yet to send me the pics in her cam.

so yeah.

i was from darLYNN's house (oh, thanks for the top).

sheikhmdshahmi, yes that idiot, had been msging like a few days ago to make sure I'd turn up for

yesterday's shesha session telling me, Farah, my ex-classmate from Temasek Primary School

was gonna be there. At first, i thought it was gonna be awkward since the last time i saw her was

like 4 years ago? But not until i met her, i couldn't search the 'awkwardness' already.

SO YEAH, HUFF & PUFF, i was rushing my home changing and blah blah blah again.

:( i totally hate it when the feeling of kanchiong-ness starts kickin'.

Oh, and i asked my love whom i've missed alot like only God knows how much along. Who else?

Amirah Bte Abdul Rahman! I can't deny but she never fails to look good/gorgeous/ znksciasbu!

the word is envy la, envy! :D

Besides sheikhmdshahmi samdol amirahabdulrahman and farahsuhaila, there were few other

people like whom i initially didnt know but ended up became aquaintances like syafiqa(sorry if its

the wrong spelling) & A'an Einstein. Oh shoots! I forgot this girl's name again! But i already knew

her through believe it or not, ANGKLUNG BABY! wait, fadzilla if i'm not wrong.

SHORT-TERM MEMORY, shut up.

and here are the pics! :D

(my MOST favourite picture!)
my phone wallpaper. hahaha, nightmares at night yo! LMAO

&& soooo. imma about to get ready. going to clark quay, Summerset.

MY TWO PAIN IN THIS SEXX-XY BUTT O'MINE, SISTERS HITTIN MOS TONIGHT WITH MY

COUSINS, Naq (and i dont who else)! oh yes, without me.

CAN YOU POPPYCOCKING BELIEVE IT!

congratulations to those who are over 18. for Kak Op's case, congratulations for being

wayyyyyyy above 18. HAHAHA.

and again, its like MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVING MOUNTAINS.

4 days without Mama & Papa & Nurfhy.

LET'S PARRRRRRRRRTY.

hahahhahahahahahah.

ITS LIKE MOVING MOUNTAINS.

ok tata;

be a real man to love me.

listening to: moving mountains.

2008-07-01T15:00:00.000-07:00

Hello mates!

omfg. This is like my first entry! :D Well ok, my intention here is not to advertise my stupity, but like i told Munnie<3,>

I'm not here to whine about things. Telling you what happened in school, which is like Duhhhh, boring? Or brag about how much I've studied for the upcoming prelims like some people do,

"Oh today, i woke up, took a shower, ate my breakfast and went to Starbucks straight to study. Oh yay! I'm becoming smarter by the day."

The same entry for the next, every god damn
day.(C'mon don't spoon-feed guiltinto us who Oh today, i woke up, took a shower,ate my breakfast and wentout to SLACK and yeah i'm sooo guilty cause i didn't study as much as you did.)

Ok i'm not trying to be superficial, i'm sorry. Well, everyone have their on way of doing things. I admit, sometimes or MOST of the times, we do things without putting much thought into it.

&& Today's READERS-MUSTRead: The Kite Runner.

Its superrreffinextremelyseriouslyubermasiveabsobloodylutely GOOD. Shit no, not only good but its MAGNIFICENT! I'll bang myself into the wall if i were to lie to you.

How good is the book? Well, imagine this. My hands were trembling while reading to the somewhat intense climax, i swear to the holy mother of cow. Ok I'll give you a snappy info, A 11-YEAR-BOY GOT RAPED(or if i must say, the boy was anal-ed) by another boy. Not only that, there's this part of the book that moved me to tears like a lil p*ssy when i was in the crowded-as-usual 27 bus. The book is seriously awesome, like WROAR awesome!

Okay, and i have tonnes of pics both inside my phone and computer. The major reason why everything is lagging. (: So imma gradually upload some random pics in time to come.

IMYSM,LylePikuPOTPOT!

greatestbestestfuckinfriendofmine

till next time;

I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else, but you.